Let me start by thanking everyone who is here visiting my blog and supporting me. I started this blog mainly because I have alot to say and I have found myself being a therapist/advice colomnist to my friends and often people I don't even know. I want to be able and give my words or wisdom and encouragement to everyone. On here I will talk about love, life, men, women, family and anything you want to talk about. Let me also point out that I invite anyone on here to speak your mind that means that even if you do not agree with what I am saying then tell me I want to be able to hear from every point of view. Now let me tell you a little bit about me. My name is Carrie and I am from the DMV and proud of it. For those of you who don't know what or where that is, it's DC Maryland and Virginia area but we just call it the DMV or short. I grew up in Silver Spring, MD and I am a proud product of the Montgomery County Public School System. I'm 22 and single just trying to find my place in the world. I want to leave this world knowing that I made a difference and a small mark if any on this earth. So without further adue may introduce Carrie L's World...
Commiment? What's So Hard About that?
I decided to start with this subject mainly because it's one of the subjects in this world that intrigues me the most. I have wonder for so many years why we as humans (not all) but some can not seem to commit to one person. Me personally have stuggled with this for many years. I'll find a guy who is right for me in everyway and I'll try to find some flaw in him and I am the one who ends up messing it up. I use the excuse that "I don't want to get hurt" knowing damn well this man is not going to hurt me at all. The truth is I am terrifed of relationships. They scare the shit out of me! I have tried for to stick it out and stay but I struggle most of the time with the staying part. I kno what you women are thinking who is this lady? And you men where have you been all my life? Well let me be honest I don't really enjoy being single, I am sige yes by choice but also to ensure that I don't hurt another man. I am trying my hardest to remain selfless because sometimes it's women like me who mes it up for future women who a man might end up with. Let me also say that I am in no way a permiscuous woman, I am very selective of who I sleep with sometimes too selective is to why at the moment I am celebate. Still I can't seem to find a solution to my delema. I have always found that adding a title on to something can sometimes ruin a good thing. It's like Carrie Bradshaw and Mr. Big getting married in the Sex and The City movie when they were perfectly happy just being together. I want a monogomous relationship where I can be happy and content without the fear of hurting my partner of getting hurt. My girlfriend said that maybe my fear of commitment comes from me getting hurt so many times where I opened up and gave a man my all who didnt deserve me. I don't want to think I'm crazy or weird for being one of the few women out here who can't commit. And remember this is not by choice. I want to be able to commit and give myself entirely to someone, I'm just not sure how to. And at times when I do fall I fall for the worng one. It's frustrating. It's been my experience that relationships take a lot of work. It's like having a second job that you get paid for with love but also fights and tears. And who likes to fight? I don't. I 'll tellyou right now if I get into an argument with someone they will only be arguing with themsleves because I don't do the yelling and screaming part. I feel like as adults we should be able to keep things civil and talk to eachother. So answer me this question why do you think that it is so hard for people, men and women, to commit?
P.S. IN YOUR COMMENTS LEAVE ME A SUBJECT FOR MY NEXT POST!
Commiment? What's So Hard About that?
I decided to start with this subject mainly because it's one of the subjects in this world that intrigues me the most. I have wonder for so many years why we as humans (not all) but some can not seem to commit to one person. Me personally have stuggled with this for many years. I'll find a guy who is right for me in everyway and I'll try to find some flaw in him and I am the one who ends up messing it up. I use the excuse that "I don't want to get hurt" knowing damn well this man is not going to hurt me at all. The truth is I am terrifed of relationships. They scare the shit out of me! I have tried for to stick it out and stay but I struggle most of the time with the staying part. I kno what you women are thinking who is this lady? And you men where have you been all my life? Well let me be honest I don't really enjoy being single, I am sige yes by choice but also to ensure that I don't hurt another man. I am trying my hardest to remain selfless because sometimes it's women like me who mes it up for future women who a man might end up with. Let me also say that I am in no way a permiscuous woman, I am very selective of who I sleep with sometimes too selective is to why at the moment I am celebate. Still I can't seem to find a solution to my delema. I have always found that adding a title on to something can sometimes ruin a good thing. It's like Carrie Bradshaw and Mr. Big getting married in the Sex and The City movie when they were perfectly happy just being together. I want a monogomous relationship where I can be happy and content without the fear of hurting my partner of getting hurt. My girlfriend said that maybe my fear of commitment comes from me getting hurt so many times where I opened up and gave a man my all who didnt deserve me. I don't want to think I'm crazy or weird for being one of the few women out here who can't commit. And remember this is not by choice. I want to be able to commit and give myself entirely to someone, I'm just not sure how to. And at times when I do fall I fall for the worng one. It's frustrating. It's been my experience that relationships take a lot of work. It's like having a second job that you get paid for with love but also fights and tears. And who likes to fight? I don't. I 'll tellyou right now if I get into an argument with someone they will only be arguing with themsleves because I don't do the yelling and screaming part. I feel like as adults we should be able to keep things civil and talk to eachother. So answer me this question why do you think that it is so hard for people, men and women, to commit?
P.S. IN YOUR COMMENTS LEAVE ME A SUBJECT FOR MY NEXT POST!
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