Story: Never Leave Things Unsaid

Hey readers I haven't been here in so long. I'm sorry there has been alot of things coming and going in my life. But I'm going be real with y'all I miss writing it keeps me sane in my world of chaos.

Today's post is going to be a story about a girl named Cai and her road to self destruction. Cai has been with this dude for almost a year off and on and she really loves him very much. She, in this relationship, has been the one not giving as much to him as he has to her. She struggled to remain the person he put on this pedestal. She wanted to give him all of her and just couldn't. She never cheated or went outside of their relationship until, one night she went out to a club with friends and had a little too much to drink and ended up getting a dudes number. At first it was innocent and she didn't intend on using the number, what she had forgotten was she had given the dude her number as well. Later he texts her after not hearing from her in a week. They texts back and forth for a while but nothing that wasn't only friendly. Until one day her man ended up finding the text messages in her phone and he ended breaking up with her for lack of trust. Although broken up they still continued to sleep with each other and hang together. Couple months down the road she started to hang out with the dude from the club who shes ended up sleeping with as well. She saw no harm in doing it mainly because she and her man were still broken up. Her man kept telling her he loved her and apologized for going through her phone, and told her that he wanted to get back together. But when he got drunk he would argue with Cai about not wanting to be him. She tells him that she needs time to find herself and get her life together before she could completely give her all to him. But she knew that in her heart he was the only one for her. In her mind he was priority and she would never be with anyone but him. Her mistake lied with the fact she didn't tell her man about the other dude she was seeing. She wanted to tell him but she found it hard to say anything to him because she was scared of losing him altogether. Her friend told her that no matter what trust is the best policy and how much could it hurt if the two of them weren't together anyway. She said still maybe its something he doesn't need to know. Her friend's questioned her. What will you do if he finds out? You already know he has his ways of finding things out. What if he goes through your phone again? She says she'll be careful, her friend said just tell him. She finally agrees to tell him after much debate. One day she woke up to find text messages from him telling her he can't do what they were doing with her anymore. Perplexed she calls him so they can talk. They begin arguing back and forth, until she finally admits to him what was going on. All he said was that he knew for a while and all he wanted was her honesty, her argument was that she was afraid to tell him because she didnt want him to leave her. Mind you Cai is fragile minded things affect her alot harder than they do most people. Her man is done and need to get back to work and hangs up the phone he tells her he will call her when he gets off work. Cai takes this as he's not going to call and that he is in fact done with her. In his mind he's going to talk with her more about later on he loves her and would do anything for her all he was asking for was for her to be honest he didn't care if she was doing her they weren't together he only asked that she tell him. Meanwhile Cai is distraught she turns off her phone leaves it in the house and leaves to go for a drive. She needed some air. Cai never made it home that night. Everyone begins calling around looking for her. They walk around her neighborhood looking for her they check all her favorite spots to blow off steam and theres no sign of her. Mike (her man) is starting to worry its been several hours since their argument and hes beginning to think something has happened to her. Finally they issue a missing persons report with the police. Days past and there was still no sign of Cai until one day a worker found her car sitting by the lake. the worker realized someone was sitting inside the car looked to be to him like they were sleeping. he knocked on the window only to find that this person wasn't sleepng they were dead. Cai was inside car huntched the wheel with a gunshot wound to the temple. She had killed herself inside her car with her grandfathers revolver. She was 22 years old.

Moral of the story, always tell the truth and never leave things unsaid. You never know when you may never get the chance to say everything you wanted to.

Peace and Love

Carrie L.