GONE TOO SOON...

Before I start this post I want to point out that recently I lost my uncle. So the past couple of days have been extremely hard for me. Usually I am someone who always has the answers and this time I didn't. Losing him was very hard and now that he's gone I've learned form it so that not only will his death not be in vain but so I can never forget who he was to me.

Have you wondered what it would be like to trade places with someone? Whether it be because they have something you want or because you wanted escape the situation you were in. No one truly knows the things you struggle with on a daily basis. Me personally have learned that when you are going through something its best to speak to someone about it. My uncle was going through something internally that many of us who were closest to him didn't know. Inside he struggling with thing that none of us could imagine. And on March 8Th he took his own life. Damn that was hard to say. It was such a shock to my family because no one could figure out why he had did it. He was more than an uncle to me he was like another father figure for me. He looked out for me when I needed something, he was there with his comedic relief when someone was down. Most importantly he was hardworking. I remember the talk I had with him after I got my DUI last year he told me that have to fix it and never do it again. And with a touch of comedy he said "I know you're going to drink again, we are a family of drinkers, but your ass better not get behind the wheel of another car.And all that i could do was smile and say, OK. And i haven't done it since. Sometimes I wonder what if I had asked him about the things I saw change in him, with all the suspected drug use. Sometimes he would come over and I would notice something strange about him. But him being my uncle I never asked because he was my elder. I wish he had known that he could come to me and talk to me. If he had just known I was there for him. When I think about these things I think about the bad things. I want to only remember the great times we had. All the laughs all the jokes. All the smiles and the tears from the laughter. Those are things I'll miss the most. He was a great man and character all his own. He was truly one in a million. And I am going to miss him so much.

So I leave you with this thought: If at any time you think that there is a negative change in someone you love (I mean anyone friends included) talk to them. If they reach out to you don't turn them away. If they say something that in any other situation they wouldn't help them. And if you think that you can't help them, find someone who will. Never abandon your family in their time of need. Love them always because you never know when God will decide to tap them on the shoulder and tell them its time to go home.


****************I DEDICATE THIS POST TO MY UNCLE DARREN "MOOSE" WILLIAMS R.I.P. GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN*******************